Welcome to the board Kathy.
You said: I've never felt so hurt and scared in all my life. I'd convinced myself that this didn't happen to anyone else... that my case was unique. Imagine my relief and my dismay that I'm not alone...
I think this is one of the areas where the WT has been most sucessful. Convincing people that they are the only one going through a particular situation. Because everyone is afraid of saying something that might get them in trouble there is no real communication in a kingdom hall. People tend to hold things in to where they can become physically or metally sick. You can get to the point were you feel you have to leave die without it even being clear why you feel this way. Then you get out find out they were the problem not you.